How could almost two years completely get away from me without posting something on my blog? I was reminded by a friend today that it had been a while since I'd written. This little girl in the picture is the reason. On July 2, 2014, she became our granddaughter and we've been wrapped around her little fingers ever since. Between her and her mama, they have proved one of my favorite sayings, "When I can see no way, God makes a way." After losing three babies, I could never see a way to have children, but we were blessed with Audrey. I could never see a way to have grandchildren and we were blessed with Jessa.
So much has happened in the past two years. I lost my brother in July of 2013. In January of 2014, my only sister was diagnosed with breast cancer. A year later now, she is cancer free, but it was a rough year for her. Scary times, two surgeries, treatments, doctor visits. She pulled through like the strong woman she's always been. Between those two, I spent a lot of time on my knees. I cried a lot. God took one from me and let me keep the other. Sometimes life just hurts.
But there were also joyful times. A niece got married, a nephew got married, family came and visited from Ohio, family moved to Savannah. As I sit here tonight, I realize how much life changes and how we just seem to be along for the ride. I feel old for the first time in my life. My back hurts and I can't dig in my yards the way I want to. I think about my past more often and I want to go back and do it again and make some better decisions, I want to spend more time with the people I've lost, I want to tell them once more how much I love them, I want to dance into the night again and walk in the rain more often. I want to eat at the Waffle House again with my brother and sit with my mama and daddy on a pew in the third row of their church. I want to.....so many things. Thank you friends for reminding me that I needed to write more. I'll make a better effort to do it this year.
